Be gentle with me for I am grieving.
The sea I swim is a lonely one, and the shore seems miles away.
Waves of despair numb my soul as I struggle through each day.
My heart is heavy with sorrow.
I want to shout and scream and repeatedly ask, “Why?”
At times, my grief overwhelms me, and I weep bitterly, so great is my loss.
Please don’t turn away or tell me to move on with my life.
I must embrace my pain before I can begin to heal.
Companion me through my tears and sit with me in loving silence.
Honour where I am in my journey, not where you think I should be.
Listen patiently to my story.
I may need to tell it over and over again.
It’s how I begin to grasp the enormity of my loss.
Nurture me through the weeks and months ahead.
Forgive me when I seem distant and inconsolable.
A small flame burns within my heart, and shared memories may trigger both laughter and tears.
I need your support and understanding.
There is no right or wrong way to grieve.
I must find my own path.
Please, will you walk beside me?
(Jill B. Englar)
Cause it’s always the phony ones tellin’ you keep it real
everything is falling into place..
time to man up and get serious.
at least im alive.
Anonymous asked: Ur an awesome person. Move forward n don't look back..
im working on it. trust me. but who is this?
Anonymous asked: r u not worried bout u? ive been following u for a while n i can see the change in ur posts, month 2 month and day 2 day. u used to b so happy...
There’s an old saying, ‘That what doesn’t kill you, makes you stronger’ I don’t believe that. I think the things that try to kill you make you angry and sad and bitter. I’m becoming angry and sad and bitter. Ill get through it though.. maybe one day I will be that happy person again.. maybe not. Either way, I’m still me. I don’t know who this is.. maybe come off anon, and I will be more willing to talk to you about shit goin on in my life.
Anonymous asked: im worried about u
Anonymous asked: From the questions you posted a while ago: #2
2. Think of the last time you were REALLY angry. WHY were you angry? Do you still feel the same way?
The last time i was REALLY angry was when i felt betrayed by someone i thought was a good friend. but i was wrong. yes im still extremely pissed at this person, and i doubt i will ever talk to them again.
but lately it seems that im just an angry person. im growing up, and for me right now, that means im growing cold and bitter and angry.